The pain I take on

My drug to return

2 places that burn

No longer normal state

Do not let my brain erase

The ego holds tight

Clinging to beliefs

Fulfilling human needs of a perfect mate

I will not hate women

We have created this pain

Who could handle it the insane

Are we all crazy

unplugged unloved witch

How many hits will I take 

Onto therapy 2 break 

2 generational curses

Abandonment and self love

gay and need a hug

generator

theories of suicide

hug the cement oh how I cry

aren't I already died

9 lives later

thick skinned no alligator

I am sensitive loving kid

There is nothing wrong with me

no urge 2 split only to align with my highest self

through love and truth and might

I forgive my transgressions

Such painful lessons as I gave all I got to others for nought 

forever have love for others pain

my greatest drug

be aware of when you are open

& the mouth is spoken 

it carries great weight 

crazy I say

She driving me crazy no

I choose this baby

push me to the edge

a blue yellow river runs red

tired hide tanned skinned alive

do I want to die

all I will question before

I can sleep

the great gasp

are you scared 2 leap

heaven knows where I go

God forbid he must

must live a life divine

cried out a cough

or babies whine

for in all life I see Death

i see me grasping at straws

out of reach 

until its experienced

I am willing to earn it

A walking breathing sermon

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